My shame, never before admitted

I was in the Army a very long time ago ,not for long, but my best friend in boot camp was a black English teacher. She cussed like a sailor and she let ME call her Nigga.
Her name was Theresa Bostick.
We were tight homie :)


But, I lost her contact info. I think she was from Detroit.


This is the most ridiculous thing I have ever admitted to anyone.


When I got out of the Army ,I was planning to go retrieve my 14 month old son (in Washington state) from my mother, and then return to my husband ,whom my mother despised(in California)


So what did I do? Because I feared my mother sooooo much?


I tore up my basic training "group photo" with everyone's contact info on it. Because ...ooooh ! I was soooo scared of my mean mommy.Some of them had autographed it speaking of me going "back " to him.


I was 19 at the time...but now ....it blows my mind that I was so controlled.


What a bunch of Sh*t!!!


I also was friends with Sparkle Brown and a girl who's last name was LOVE. Her husband had hung himself.


If any of you guys find this "it's me BLACK!"