Doesn't that look appealing?
I'm disgusted to say that it does to me. If I could find that bowl of disgust right now I would smoke everything in there that had a spec of tobacco left in it.
This is day 5 on the stupid patch. I would love to say that I have not smoked at all.But we all know I'm weaker than that. I can force myself to NOT go buy cigarettes, but any FOUND cigarettes are like a gift .I can't look a gift horse in the mouth, can I? Um.. No. I can not.
A couple days ago I found a pack under my desk from England with about 5 cigarettes in it. They were oh so crunchy and stale and gross. In a normal mental state I would never smoke such a thing. Now is not a time of normal mental status. I am happy (?) maybe, to say they are all gone now. I have also smoked every viable butt in the house car and garage. There weren't many of those. Believe me ,I looked. I'm like a crack whore.
Now I am down to nothing at all. I'm pretty sure I won't be finding any more "gift" cigarettes around here .Excuse me if I am neglectful right now. I am psycho.
Maybe in about a week I'll be a little better.
Vee shall see.
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My hubby has to travel a lot and he NEVER takes the camera. ack!
Well the past couple days he DID take it. (Must have gotten sick of my nagging)
Here is a little trip to London. Enjoy :)
Thanks Hubby!
Have a great day peeps!
Luv me
